Give Thanks

Today, I received a letter from Home Office (Immigration Office in UK). They were so efficient, exactly 3 weeks, no more or less.

Suddenly I feel very nervous, don't know why, maybe it has a double meaning for me. Not only able to stay in UK or not but also whether God want me to stay or not.

As I said before, I would use "whether I can get a job in UK" to decide whether I should stay here. But later, God used my father to tell me I need to stay in UK. I am glad that my father supported my plan but to be honest, I am not quite sure with God's decision. So again, due to my insecureness, I prayed to God, if I able to get the visa, I know it's your will to let me stay in UK; if not, please let the home office reject me and I will obey your decision and go back to Malaysia in October.

Ok, back to the letter from Home office today. I took out all the documents (certificate, bank statement, university letter, etc) first. Then, there is a letter from Home office. So, I read it very very slowly, like those who gamble would cover their card to read it bit by bit. Ok, it stated my address and home office address, then thank you for your application. Until I saw the word: I am PLEASED to tell you that we have approved your application and give you leave to remain until 06 July 2012.

Oh, Thanks God from my deepest heart, I really appreciate it. God, thank you for your kindness and grace and I know You know what is good for me. I will keep rely on You as You will be a guide in the future, You are my light in darkness, You are my all in all.

Praise to the Lord and Glory to the King of Kings

人生的第一辆车

终于考完试了（其实考完一个星期了）
不过好像刚刚才有空，可以停下来
因为不断有celebration dinner
celebration drinks
甚至也去了graduation trip

终于有空停下来看看我的micra仔
micra仔是谁？就是它啦！

哈哈，真帅

由于爸爸买给我的第一辆车是小车，我自己也就习惯了
有时开大的车都感觉怪怪的，所以这辆车就很适合我啦！

还没有买之前有跟爸爸商量，他说要买就买好一点的车
不然有什么事情，他又不再我身边，没有人能帮我解决

可是我跟他说，现在我又还没有找到工
等找到以后也不可能一下子就能赚到钱（因为英国的生活费还是蛮贵的）
反正车子只是代步，有一辆车就很感恩了
再加上我在英国的学费又花了一笔钱，现在又没有打工了
所以我真的不想再花爸爸的钱（虽然他不介意 ＝P）

爸爸就说，那等我觉得适合的时候，再换一辆好的车吧！
就这样，我拥有了我人生的第一辆车
我人生用自己的钱买的车（之前打工所存下来钱）
感觉很好，很有成就感
我竟然可以凭自己的能力买到一辆车，真的好开心哦！

在英国的生活就是这样，很多时候物质上的东西
我都可以凭自己的能力满足自己
之前就用了打工的钱，做为自己的生活费
付了大约一年半的房租
买了一部iphone，回马来西亚的飞机票
去了意大利，西班牙，法国，荷兰
瑞士，芬兰，还有英国的一点小地方旅行
哇！怎么算着算着好像很多，我都不知道自己有赚这么都钱 －.－''
不过这辆车算是带给我最大的满足感啦！
如果在马来西亚工作，都不知何时才买得起自己的一辆车

感人的婚礼

刚刚参加了朋友的婚礼，应该是说教会姊妹的婚礼。第一次参加朋友的婚礼，收到的喜帖是写我的名字，而不是“赖家阖府统请”。这也是我第一次参加教会的婚礼（有一次是在我很小的时候，当时还没信主，还有一些教会的祝福礼），所以心情很不一样。

这姊妹的婚礼很简单，跟她的性格是成正比的。她是很为别人着想的人，从派喜帖给我们就说，不来没有关系，不用勉强，因为她的婚礼是在Glasgow（英国北部）举行，从伦敦乘火车去大概要五个小时，所以她很怕令我们麻烦。

透过这个姊妹，认识了她的男朋友，现在是老公啦！结婚当天，新郎笑的合不拢嘴，非常地开心，真的能够感受到他心里的喜悦，也是我见过他笑的最灿烂的一天。

看见这位姊妹步入教堂，我的眼泪就忍不住打转。还记得三年前的圣诞节，我跟她聊起她的男朋友，当时候我还笑她说，拍拖这么久，怎么还不结婚？她说时间还没到。而今天，时间终于到了，我真的很替她开心，心里真的很感动。

见证着他们的婚礼，他们对彼此的爱，对彼此的承诺，衷心祝福他们幸福快乐。

之后，我们到公园拍照。感谢主，虽然有点冷，可是天气非常晴朗，偶尔还有阳光，所以一切进行地很顺利。拍照过后新娘就准备丢花球，我和另外两个姊妹就不想加入，想说在旁边观看就好。可是后来新娘看见了我们，就呼喊我们一定要加入，我们就想说凑热闹吧！由于这新娘是个子很小的女生，她就怕自己没有力气丢，就叫所有人往前走。跟我一起的姊妹就说：我们站后面一点吧！她丢不到这么远的。

3....2....1.... 花球被丢出了，可是超乎所有人的想像，超越所有人站的位子，花球落在一个很远的地方，大家愣住了。而我，相比其他人是站在离花球比较近的地方（其实花球离我也很远），我就必需要去拾起来。就这样，花球就归我了。在拍照的时候，新娘就对我的男朋友说：不用紧张，玩玩而已，今晚不用睡不着，哈哈。。这就成了这婚礼的小插曲。

在晚上的婚宴，一开始是新郎致词，首先感谢来宾的到来。之后对爱他的父母，姐姐表示感谢，说到这里，新郎已经开始哽咽，感谢他们的照顾和支持，之后他更对新娘的父亲作出承诺，会尽力让她永远开心。最后，当然是感谢爱他的老婆，他说：我们经过很多风浪，很辛苦才走到这一步，我打从心里地爱你，能够娶到你，是我的幸福。说到这里，新郎，新娘都感动地哭了，在座的女性宾客都无法忍住泪水，包括我。

之后是新娘的致词，她知道自己没有办法压抑自己的情绪，所以一早就把致词写好，交代司仪帮忙唸出：感谢父亲的劳苦，很辛苦的供给她来英国念书，感谢从香港远道而来的亲友，感谢从伦敦过来的同事和我们，感谢好友的陪伴，也感谢老公的父母的包容和照顾。

本来这姊妹在之前叫我帮忙唸出她的谢词，可是我怕自己做不来，就没有答应。后来我跟她说，还好我没有答应，因为她老公的致词已经让我哭的说不出话了，所以我一定没有办法帮她唸出她的致词。

一开始有想过只是去中午教会的婚礼就回伦敦，因为我下个星期就要考试。可是后来决定逗留到婚宴，从他们的眼神，言语看见他们对我们的道来表示非常的感谢，我也看见他们的真情流露，所以我知道这个决定是值得的。我相信他会是一个好老公，而她，会很幸福的！

1st telephone interview in my life

Had a telephone interview today, 1st in my life!
I think it's ok but something can be improve.
I was very calm because I don't even know it is a telephone interview.

Interviewer: Hello, can I speak to Vicky Lai?

Me: Yes, speaking

Interviewer: I am calling from bla bla bla company. Regarding about your application for HR internship, I would like to know more about you

Me: OK

Interviewer: Are you currently studying in King's College London?
When is your course comes to the end?
When can you start working?
Do you need to give notice to your present company?
What other intern has you applied?
This job role is responsible for bla bla bla....
What do you learn about reward and pay in your uni?
What do you learn about training and development in your uni?
Our company reward and pay are bla bla bla....
Training and development are bla bla bla....
How much did you previous company pay for you?
Are you satisfy with our pay rate?
What other benefits are you looking for?

Like this, he asked me on the phone around 15 mins and it was a bit like an exam especially when he asked me what have I learned in uni. What do I know about reward and pay, training and development, etc. But luckily, it was my previous exam questions, so I still can remember what I have been taught. Due to I don't know it was an interview, so I just acted like normal chatting.

After 15 mins chatting....

Interviewer: Thank you very much. This job role has 3 selection stages which are one telephone interview and two face to face interviews. I have done the telephone interview with you just now and we will call you back if we want you to participate in our face to face interview. The decision making process should take no more than 10 days.

Then I was like: huh?! Just now was telephone interview? Oh, I think I give some silly answer or give too casual answer coz when he asked me is there any intern I have apply for, I answer no and he asked why? I firstly answer by saying their company is very good, I really hope to join this kind of company. My 2nd and 3rd points were because the intern period suits my time and the company is very close to my house. Later I realised this answer sounds childish but my friends said it's alright, nothing wrong with the answer. Anyways, it has pass. What I can do now is wait.

My dear Lord, if this is the job that you have prepared for me, please help me proceed, I really hope I can get a job soon. But if it is not the job you want to give me, I am willing to obey your will and wait for you decision.

生死边缘

今天如常乘搭地铁去上课，到Belsize Park（大概只过了两个站）的时候，地铁上冒起大烟，所有人都匆忙地逃下地铁。没错！他们真的是用逃的，从他们的表情上看得出，他们很恐惧，很慌张。。这也使我心里有一种莫名的害怕。所以人都在观察发生什么事，地铁站却没有做出任何的报告。

不久，所有人又上地铁，我也跟着。但是我的心里是也很害怕的，我就闭上眼睛祷告。忽然听见这些人又冲下地铁。到底发生什么事？？我不知道。。那些人也不知道。。大家都很疑惑，我们就继续站在原处等。

终于，地铁的人报告了：
This is an emergency announcement, all passengers please leave the station immediately.

同时间，另外一辆地铁到了，眼见所有人都在跑，有的赶着上地铁，有的往电梯里挤，那电梯是通往出口的。而我，即上不了地铁也进不了电梯，等于我是在两头不到岸的情况， 心里真的很害怕，不知道下一秒会发生什么事。旁边更是有人大喊说：FIRE!!!!FIRE!!!!
令我毛骨悚然。过一会儿，电梯到了，我也安全地离开地铁站，但是这个早晨可以说是又惊又险！

我当时的祷告是：主啊！我不知道发生什么事，但如果主祢要我死在这里，求你与我同在！

现在回想会觉得很可笑，但是在当时的情况，人们的惊慌失措，无助的自己，对于下一秒的无知，真的使我很恐惧。

如果当时真的发生什么悲剧，我觉得最可惜的是没有办法跟爱我的家人，朋友和弟兄姊妹道别。如果有机会，我最想说的是：
不要为我的离开而哭，要跟随主耶稣到底，因为唯有这样我们才可以在天家相聚。

主啊！经过这件事，再次令我发觉自己是多么的渺小，唯有祢是我随时的帮助。求你帮助我，时时把祢的话语记在心里，为祢做美好的见证，直到我见祢面。

诗篇46：1
神是我们的避难所，
是我们的力量，
是我们在患难中随时的帮助。

It was snowing again in London!!!!

I still remember last year Feb around CNY, London had a heavy snow as well but at that time I was in M'sia so I missed the snow. I was so jealous when looking at those pic of my friends, with "white" city and snowman.

During last Christmas, it was snowing before and after Christmas, so I had a white Christmas, I was so excited while looking outside the window seeing the snow getting more and more. It snows on and off for around 1 week, so I use up my time going to few places, played snow war and make my 1st ever snowman and 2nd.

The 1st snowman built by me who wearing my scarf.

2nd snowman wearing my scarf too..

The night before today, it was snowing again and it was quite heavy compared to the previous snow. During yesterday afternoon, it was keep on snowing and it was very heavy! After a while, all places have been covered up by snow, it looks like movie and child's fairy tale.

I like this photo so much, it was so nice!

When I walked through the Hendon park, my shoe was covered by the snow, luckily I was wearing boot, I think it should have around 30-40cm thick.

I slept on the snow, it was so soft and comfortable, probably because of the snow was still "fresh"..lol.. I had a great time with my friends, we were playing snow war, building huge snowman and taking lot of photos.

My 3rd and 4th snowman.
Proud of it. It was even taller than us.
Again, it was wearing my scarf and another scarf belongs to Stephen
Some ppl pass by want to take photo with our snowman too..haha..

I was my greatest experience while I am studying in UK
which is so SWEET and MEMORABLE!

12-12-2009

昨天早上去了WMC教会观礼（洗礼），一共有36位弟兄姐妹接受洗礼，我们甘霖堂就有3位姐妹。看到他们愿意在众人面前愿意归向主，真的很开心，也很感恩。我相信如果不是神感动的话，没有人能够敞开心来接受主耶稣为我们的救主，因为我们的眼睛原是被蒙蔽的。

这就是WMC的洗礼池。第一次看到室内的洗礼池。

甘霖堂的弟兄姐妹

完毕后就把洗礼池收起来，原来是这样的。呵呵。。

之后去了教会附近吃午餐，吃了20分钟但却等了一个小时多，真的快饿死了（食物还是很难吃的）。前一天晚上，师母和雯都鼓励我做open house的副组长，想了一个晚上，我决定试一试，怎么说都是为主做工，既然神呼召我，我就答应了，所以午餐后就赶着去开会。

晚上到了Westminster Central Hall听Christmas Praise Concert, 当中有很多的乐器，诗班，还有讲道（这是我意料之外的），所演奏的歌曲真的很好听！途中也有邀请会众一起站立唱诗歌，感觉很雄伟，也很感动，一起敬拜神的感觉真的很好！但愿人人都能归向主，都能开声唱诗赞美神！

大合照！

Research Method

Today, the lecturer told us the exam format, it will be divided into two sections. In section A, there will be 2 compulsory questions (70%). For section B, there will be 5 questions, we need to answer 3 questions (30%) from those five.

Oh my god!! I am so worry now, this is the module which make me very anxious, I don't have math talent, don't have sense in statistic, but now 70% are compulsory, which mean if I can't do well in those 2 questions, then that's it. I am failing..

The other 3 modules are 100% exam as well, which make me feel stress because from my previous exam experience, I can understand the question, I know the answer but the problem is I don't have enough time to write!! so cruel..Exam is an inhuman way to test student!!

Today is the 1st day of December, meaning I only left 1 month to catch up, to study..
oooo..can I wish Christmas is not coming, New year is not coming, exam is not coming??

不愉快的早晨

今早一起床就觉得不舒服，因为昨晚又睡不好，外面还下着雨，真讨厌这种感觉。梳洗完毕以后，我就准时出门了。还好外面不是下很大雨但是地上就湿答答的，眼见车辆行驶很缓慢。当我走到巴士站后，看见了在远方的巴士正向我行驶过来。谁知道，由于车辆众多，我足足等了20分钟才上到巴士。平时只须5分钟的巴士路程就能到地铁站，今天又用了我20分钟。到了地铁站，又没有我要乘搭的地铁，要到另一个站转地铁。我认输了。。这回我可要迟到了。。

迟到了十五分钟才到教室门口，颤颤惊惊地打开门，看见他在教课，正背着门口，就想说直直走进去，快要到我想坐下的位子，他却叫住了我，叫我等小息是再回来，本来想跟他辩论的，还是想说算了。。之前就看见过这个老师连迟到一分钟就不让学生进班，本来我想说我已经进去了，他应该就算了，结果还故意要叫我出去。他以为他自己在教小学吗？当我们是几岁小孩来教吗？这跟不讲人情的小学中学老师有什么分别呢？更可恶的是，我付了这么多钱，他又凭什么夺走我听课的权利？正常的老师都容许15分钟的迟到时限，给老师，也给学生。谁不知道伦敦的交通是多么的麻烦，下点雨，下点雪就要延迟或停止使用。他以为全部学生都住在学校旁边吗？真是的。。

投诉风波

在几个星期前，我打工的那个餐馆被人投诉，由于当天太忙，可能在服务上令他不满意，我说的他就是投诉我们的人，一个BBC。他临走前，就向我的老板娘投诉，还说要上网投诉，我的老板娘也向他表示非常抱歉，也表明下次他再光临时，给他优惠。他走了以后，我们就继续忙我们的事。结果他打电话来又在电话上开骂，我的老板娘还是只能向他道歉，过了一回儿，他竟然又打来，说有一个服务生态度很差。当时我们都不知道他说的是谁，因为根本没有人对他态度差，结果我的老板娘就叫我假扮另一个服务生向他道歉，我就照做了。在电话中，我尽力向他解释，向他道歉，最后还请求他接受我们的道歉，他就没事了。

我们都以为这件事就告一段落，结果大概两个星期后，他在网上大骂我们，骂食物，骂饮料，骂服务，骂服务生，用词还很重，简直想餐馆倒闭。

我真的不明白为什么会有这样的人，他三反四次的投诉，我们都已经很诚恳地向他道歉，结果他还要欺人太甚。术语说：最毒妇人心，为什么一个大男人会这样？最糟糕的事，他在网上叙述的事情，有些并不是事实，他在说谎。他是一个年轻人，相信是有学历的，难道他读的书都是“屎片”吗？还是马来西亚人，真丢马来西亚人的面！我们从海外远道而来英国工作，读书，生活；被本地人，白种人，黑种人看不起，欺负欺压都无话可说。可是今天，欺压我们的竟是自己人，我真的不敢想像。

至于他骂的那个服务生原来是我，可是我并没有对他态度差，他说的是谎言。我在这间餐馆工作这么久，虽然有时会不开心，会有埋怨，但是我自问我做每件事都是尽心尽力；因为这是神教我的，既然给别人打工就要像爱上帝一样，无论如何，都要站在老板的立场诚实地为他做每件事。我工作这两年来，从来没有被客人投诉过，更没有客人说我的态度差。我这次真的很冤，真的是哑子吃黄连，有苦说不清！

神啊！我知道祢是看顾人的神，祢是公义的神，是祢应许说：不要自己申冤，宁可让步，听凭主怒。因为经上记着，主说，申冤在我，我必报应。神说：你不可为恶所胜，要以善胜恶。

新课程

今天是转了课程后的第二天，上了3个modules,觉得还可以，我应该能够跟上，但是最后一堂课竟然是statistic!! 对于我这个数学白痴来说，这一刻真的很有难度，两个小时的课，我都不知道lecturer在讲什么，不是因为我在发梦，而是我真的听不懂，什么r=.08; p=<.05; p=.0001; F2; P2, 啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！我真的不明白，掺了，我真的能够跟上吗？我还有一课accounting要应付呢！

这两天也认识了一些新朋友，四个华人，但是都来自与不同的地方，有台湾，香港，新加坡和中国，坐在一起感觉很奇妙。。我的班90％都是女生，但是lecturer都是男人，呵呵，真奇怪。

～～由于被人嫌弃我话太多，话题很无聊，有很多话只能在这里跟自己说了。。～～

终于搬家了

终于搬家了！！！！
忍受了一切的不愉快的事情后，终于搬了新家。心情也好了很多，学业上的事情也处理好了，我终于可以安心读书，恢复宁静的生活。
想煮饭就煮，
想煲汤就煲，
想安静就安静，
想吵闹就吵闹，
我终于自由了！
感谢主的看顾，还是主最了解我，给我做了最好的安排！

这就是我可爱的家啦！随便放几张照片。。

oh NO!!!!

I think I made a wrong decision.. NO!!!!
OMG, what should I do now?! Follow what the wrong path or change my path with loosing £1050?

~~LIFE IS PAINFUL WHEN YOU CAN NOT SEE THE ROAD AHEAD~~

毕业了

毕业典礼当天，令我回想起很多东西。想当初自己以为单独出国念书是一件很简单的事情，但原来很多事情都不如自己的想像，还好一直有S的陪伴和主内弟兄姐妹的爱护，才让我坚持下去。

在台下等颁发毕业证书时，除了有学校的大人物致辞，还播放了一段影片，内容是四个不同国籍的学生陈述他们的大学生涯。当时我的眼泪就不知觉地在眼眶里打转，回想起我在英国这段日子中的甜酸苦辣－面对某人的瞧不起，面对课业的重担，面对突如其来亲人离世的消息，心情真的百般地交集。

而今天，我终于毕业了，我梦寐以求的一级荣誉学士也证明了我的努力。相信有得必有失，但回头看走过的道路，主的恩典真的够我用。

First class honours

Got my overall result..

THANKS GOD!!!!

I got FIRST CLASS HONOURS..

Wakakakaka..So happy..Yuhooooo..

1/2 chance

Today, I received another letter from my third choice university - East Anglia.
Before I open it, I think I already know the reply.
The reason is: THE LETTER IS SO THICK (especially compared with City)

Really, my application has been successful!!

Thanks God, I can go on further study rather than anxious for my future.

I checked the newest university ranking from Guardian, East Anglia law subject is on 39th. And I realised Nottingham is on 14th although its overall ranking has dropped compared to last year but I think ranking by subject would be more accurate. So, I really surprised because I though City law school is the best (I mean out of my three choices).

Now, wait for my last chance - NOTTINGHAM

泡汤了

刚刚收到从City寄来的信，心中满满的期待，战战兢兢地打开。

谁知收到的结果是：
Thank you for your interest in the course. Your application has been received and considered. I regret that we are unable to offer you a place on the course.

怎么办？这是我最想要进的大学，我的first choice，现在。。泡汤了。。
虽说我一直跟上帝祷告说，我愿意顺服，愿意跟随主的旨意，但原来我的心却不是这么想。多么希望主的旨意就是我想走的路，多么希望收到的是offer letter，多么希望进到的大学就是我的first choice。

虽然现在我还有两间大学的选择，还有三分之二的机会，但是现在心中就像是被判了死刑一样，心中简直在淌血，眼泪也流不出来。如果Nottingham收我，我是否甘心乐意地接受；如果Norwich收我，我是否有勇气离开自己熟悉的地方，去到陌生的环境，开始新的生活？如果这两间都拿不到，我又该怎么办呢？是上帝不要我读law，还是说上帝要我做工呢？还是该时候回马来西亚呢？

我真的不知道，头脑一片空白。唯有告诉自己是上帝应许说：
万事都互相效力，叫爱神的人得益处。
神的道路高过人的道路，神的意念高过人的意念。
人不能数算自己的日子，唯有神掌管明天。

救猫大行动

昨天在教会大扫除的时候，忽然听见stephen和陈雯说有一只小猫被夹在抓老鼠的引诱器里，它的头被塞在引诱器的入口洞，不能出来。


他们就把引诱器打开，把小猫救了出来。结果小猫就立刻跑到牧师的车轮，还躲着不出来。


大扫除结束后，我们就出去找小猫，知道它还在车轮里，
我们使尽全力才能在红色箭头的方向看见它的耳朵，从黄色点就看到它的小手。

我们怕牧师一开车就把它给压死，就想办法要把它引诱出来。
无论是面包还是牛奶都引诱不了它，我们就想要把它慢慢的拉出来。
这时，所有的男士都打推堂鼓，竟说怕摸毛绒绒的动物。
最后，女士只好出马了。陈雯第一个去试，她说它被夹在车轮里面了。
一开始我还半信半疑，决定亲自去摸摸，
当我伸手去摸的时候，我才知道，天啊！它真的被卡着了。我摸到的感觉就像下面的图，它的身体完全躲在车轮的空隙，而它的脚就被车轮的铁（红色处）卡着了。
真的好可怜！一开始被老鼠引诱器夹着头，现在又被车轮卡着。
我们只好用最后也是唯一的方法－把车轮拆下来。
这时就需要男士们的帮助，当然还有牧师的同意。
只见男士们不费二虎之力就把轮胎拆出来，也顺利把小猫咪救了出来。
我们女士们当然很开心咯！立刻用了一个纸皮箱做了一个暂时的家给它。
至于牧师的车，我们完全抛诸脑后，留给男士去处理。
这时，我深深地了解到上帝创造男女的原因。
女人体贴，却容易用情绪来处理问题；
男人虽然爱心不比女人强，却往往能用理智的处理问题。



小猫咪真的很可爱，眼神很无辜，就像Shrek里面的猫一样。这是我们做给它暂时的家，还拿了水和买了猫粮给它。

可是过了很久，它还是不吃不喝，我们连猫粮的包装袋也放进去引诱它，它也不肯吃。
我们把食物喂到它口里，它也不吃。

我们怕它是因为吃了老鼠引诱器里的poison，所以不舒服。

只好打电话叫流浪动物协会来把它带走，那一刻我真的很想收养它，但我却没有勇气。

想起我小时候也养过小狗，最后因为照顾不当而被送走，当时的我哭得稀里哗啦的；
之后我也养过小时候很流行的电子宠物，我还记得当时我养的是一只小鸡，
可是有一天我发现它生病了，我不停帮它打针还是没用，最后它还是死了，
虽然是虚假的，但我也哭的死去活来。
经过这些经验后，我真的不敢再担起养宠物的责任了。

也许把小猫咪送走对它更好，也希望小猫咪经过协会的照料很快会康复吧！

人类的极限

今天考了第一科－Advertising and Sales Promotion。
昨晚还很镇定地在摇摇晃晃看戏。。玩sudoku。。
不知道是因为准备充足还是读书读到傻了。
到最后还是再温习一遍才睡觉。

看到考题时，明白它要问的是什么，知道我要写的是什么，可是就是不够时间写。眼睁睁看着时间一分一秒的过去，我的手完全不敢停下来，不停地写，不停地写，直到两个小时完毕。

一共要回答三题，两题30％，一题40％。老师还说一题大概需要写两页半。
第一题用了40分钟，还剩conclusion没有时间写；
第二题写了四页，一共有五个重点要讲，由于时间的关系，最后的两个重点我只能随便讲几句，简直是把所有point用逗号连在一起，字体还丑到不行；
第三题只剩下20分钟，只写了一页多一点点，example都没时间写，conclusion就更不用说了。这样的答案，要拿到1st的机会也很渺茫！

心情很烦躁，很复杂，很郁闷。。
明明知道所有的答案，但是就是因为不够时间，很多东西都没有写进去。
哎，到底谁发明考试的？！简直是要挑战人类的极限。电脑的发明就是要代替人类不能完成的任务，为什么考试不能跟上时代的脚步呢？用电脑打就好了嘛！

下个星期二还有一科，希望够时间给我写完该写的。

这是最后的考试了，算是对自己最后的交代，也完成父母托付我的任务。
真希望可以那到1st honour 毕业，可是世事就是不如人意。。

How was my 2008

Finally, another year has gone, new year has come. When I looked back my diary in 2008, it was complicated but it reminded me the past. I've listed out some important things happened and how was my emotion.

Jan 2008

• I went to Cardiff, visited Kwan and then she brought us to Bath.
• 1st time song lead in Colindale Church
• Get a job in Allegra Strategies as data entry
• Emotion rate: 4 (1: very bad to 5: very good)

This place is Roman Bath, worth place to visit.
























Feb 2008

• 1st time receive "ang pau" in UK which was from my boss and a customer in the restaurant that I worked in.
• 1st time watch movie in cinema in UK. The movie was "Jumper"
• Emotion rate: 4
  

Mar 2008

• Went to Thorpe Park, didn't play much because I was so scare after riding the 1st roller coaster
• Watched football match: Sweden vs Brazil in Arsenal Stadium
• Emotion rate: 3
  

Apr 2008

• Milan, Venice, and Switzerland Trip. This photo was taken while I watched football match in San Siro Stadium (AC Milan vs Atalanta)
• Snowing in London, weird timing
• Emotion rate: 5 (Having Fun!)

May 2008

• 2nd Academic year examination
• Celebrate 5th anniversary
• Back to Malaysia
• Emotion rate: 2 (Stressful)
  

Jun 2008

• Port Dickson trip with family
• Heard a very bad news
• Trip to Hong Kong and Macau
• Emotion rate: 1 (Unbelievable, unacceptable mood)

Jul 2008

• 21st Birthday party, this was my cute cute pig birthday cake! Love it!
  
• Ultra sound examination
• Emotion rate: 3 (Complicated mood)

Aug 2008

• Olympic in Beijing, China
• Back to London
• Children summer camp, pastor Wong preaching, very good and remind me something
• Emotion rate: 2 (Uncertain)
  

Sept 2008

• Finally found a place to stay, sign a contract for 1 year
• 1st time watched Theater, "Joseph and amazing dream's coat"
• Emotion rate: 3 (Tired)
  

Oct 2008

• Start 3rd academic year
• Emotion rate: 3
  

Nov 2008

• Canterbury Trip, visited vineyard. However, we missed the best season
  
• Very stressful because of group problem and lots of assignments
• Emotion rate: 2 (Moody)
  
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Dec 2008

• Christmas and New Year celebration!
• Emotion rate: 5 (Grateful)

After reading this, I realised I have done many things in 2008. I have done something out of my expectation, something happened out of my control but still I have to face it. Thanks God for giving me the strength to face tomorrow because I know He holds the future.
Psalms 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.