无价

甘霖堂第五届家庭营，终于完成了
荣耀归给主！

在营会的三天里
我的头一直很痛，又睡得不够
但是感谢主，带领我度过了一切

从挣扎到坚持
从失望到盼望
从疲乏到得力
从紧张到交托
从缺口到补上
从征战到扶持
都是靠着主的能力，主的爱
而当中的心路历程并不是言语能形容的

看见弟兄姊妹和朋友玩得这么开心
对神有更进一步的关系
有所得着和领受了神的祝福
一切的劳苦，辛酸，眼泪
都是值得的，得到的回报更是无价

感谢主赐给我这个机会
我学习很多，经历很多，成长很多
这是我跟随主的道路上的点缀
深信主要开启我事奉生涯的另一页

师母说了一句话
其实弟兄姊妹在营会结束后就完了
神最大的祝福是在筹备小组上
经过这一次
我相信我们的委员变得更刚强
我们的关系也更进一步
希望我们能够带给更多人得到神的祝福

人若自洁，脱离卑贱的事
就必作贵重的器皿，成为圣洁
合乎主用，预备行各样的善事
你要逃避少年的私欲
同那清心祷告主的人
追求公义，信德，仁爱，和平
提摩太后书2：21－22

不配的罪人

昨天，大哭了一场
这不是第一次
曾经也因为太大压力的关系而崩溃
但这，却是第一次压力来自于事奉
我累了，我真的累了
做的很不开心，很不开心
心中的难受，没有办法形容
也不知道怎么形容
主啊，唯有你知道

我是一个不完美的人，一个有罪的人
但主啊，你却如此的爱我
甚至为我而死
主啊，我想做好事情，却做不好

主啊。。。。
我没有办法承受压力，只会哭
我没有办法面对争执，只会躲
我没有办法做好领袖，只会就
我没有满满的爱心，只有诚实话
我没有
我没有
我什么都没有

主啊！为什么你要爱我
我是如此的罪人
你却称我为祢宝贝的女儿
我不配，我真的不配

主啊，我真的好累
不知道怎么走下去
我真的好累好累。。。。

神的爱

尽力告诉自己不要这么在乎，就不会这么难受
可是，我真的做不到
不同的人对不同的事情都有不同的看法
有些人觉得是小事，有些人却很在乎
因为怕显得自己小气，有时觉得小事就算了吧
曾经有人这么告诉我
如果是小事你就不会在乎，如果你在乎就不是小事
是否是小事我不知道，只知道心里很难受
原来人可以做到这么残忍，唯有神的爱是无条件

爱是恒久忍耐，又有恩慈
爱是不嫉妒，爱是不自夸，不张狂，不做害羞的事
不求自己的益处，不轻易发怒，不计算人的恶
不喜欢不义，只喜欢真理
凡事包容，凡事相信
凡事盼望，凡事忍耐
爱是永不止息
哥林多前书13：4 - 8

Give Thanks

Today, I received a letter from Home Office (Immigration Office in UK). They were so efficient, exactly 3 weeks, no more or less.

Suddenly I feel very nervous, don't know why, maybe it has a double meaning for me. Not only able to stay in UK or not but also whether God want me to stay or not.

As I said before, I would use "whether I can get a job in UK" to decide whether I should stay here. But later, God used my father to tell me I need to stay in UK. I am glad that my father supported my plan but to be honest, I am not quite sure with God's decision. So again, due to my insecureness, I prayed to God, if I able to get the visa, I know it's your will to let me stay in UK; if not, please let the home office reject me and I will obey your decision and go back to Malaysia in October.

Ok, back to the letter from Home office today. I took out all the documents (certificate, bank statement, university letter, etc) first. Then, there is a letter from Home office. So, I read it very very slowly, like those who gamble would cover their card to read it bit by bit. Ok, it stated my address and home office address, then thank you for your application. Until I saw the word: I am PLEASED to tell you that we have approved your application and give you leave to remain until 06 July 2012.

Oh, Thanks God from my deepest heart, I really appreciate it. God, thank you for your kindness and grace and I know You know what is good for me. I will keep rely on You as You will be a guide in the future, You are my light in darkness, You are my all in all.

Praise to the Lord and Glory to the King of Kings

凡事都有定期

刚刚收到教会姊妹的信息：某个老姊妹去世了
心情很低落，很不开心。。。。
知道她在医院的时候，就很想念她，很想去看看她
当我逛clinton card的时候，就想起她，想说要买一张卡送给她
后来想说亲自去探访会比较有诚意，所以就没有买
一直要安排去探访她的时间，可是每一次在教会见到牧师都忘记问他
所以昨天晚上就特别在我的电话的to do list写上：call pastor
没有想到，还是迟了，还是迟了一步

她是一个很坚持的老人家，很多事情都很固执，
所以我在她家住的时候，跟她有一些冲突，但不至于伤感情
不过我必须要说，她是一个很有爱心的人
在她家居住的那段日子，她简直把我当成她的孙女来对待
我心里一直很感动

她也是一个很认真的人，为着孙子在2011的毕业典礼
她特别去学跳舞，决定用两年的时间来学习
为的就是能够在当天全心参与，谁也没有想到她等不到那个时候
不过我相信，她的孙子已经感受到她的爱了

她不喜欢别人问她累不累，因为她觉得自己还不至于这么弱
她不喜欢别人在她退车时帮忙看，因为她觉得自己可以做到
她不喜欢别人跟她住，因为觉得别人受不了自己
在别人眼中，她可能是一个很难搞的老人家
可是在我的眼中，她的坚持都有她的原因和道理

今天，她走了，她回天家了
难过是一定的，但至少我知道她在那里
有一天我们会在天家相见的
你安息吧！

爱我们的天父，你是看顾人的神
为着她的离开我向祢祷告，求祢保守她的灵魂
回到祢的身边，直到永远
也为着她的家人来祷告，求祢亲自来安慰

凡事都有定期，天下万务都有定时。
生有时，死有时。
栽种有时，拔出所栽种的，也有时。
杀戮有时，医治有时。
拆毁有时，建造有时。
哭有时，笑有时。
哀恸有时，跳舞有时。
抛掷石头有时，堆聚石头有时。
怀抱有时，不怀抱有时。
寻找有时，失落有时。
保守有时，舍弃有时。
撕裂有时，缝补有时。
静默有时，言语有时。
喜爱有时，恨恶有时。
争战有时，和好有时。
神造万物，各按其时成为美好。
又将永生安置在世人心里。
然而神从始至终的作为，人不能参透。
传道书 3：1-11

人生的第一辆车

终于考完试了（其实考完一个星期了）
不过好像刚刚才有空，可以停下来
因为不断有celebration dinner
celebration drinks
甚至也去了graduation trip

终于有空停下来看看我的micra仔
micra仔是谁？就是它啦！

哈哈，真帅

由于爸爸买给我的第一辆车是小车，我自己也就习惯了
有时开大的车都感觉怪怪的，所以这辆车就很适合我啦！

还没有买之前有跟爸爸商量，他说要买就买好一点的车
不然有什么事情，他又不再我身边，没有人能帮我解决

可是我跟他说，现在我又还没有找到工
等找到以后也不可能一下子就能赚到钱（因为英国的生活费还是蛮贵的）
反正车子只是代步，有一辆车就很感恩了
再加上我在英国的学费又花了一笔钱，现在又没有打工了
所以我真的不想再花爸爸的钱（虽然他不介意 ＝P）

爸爸就说，那等我觉得适合的时候，再换一辆好的车吧！
就这样，我拥有了我人生的第一辆车
我人生用自己的钱买的车（之前打工所存下来钱）
感觉很好，很有成就感
我竟然可以凭自己的能力买到一辆车，真的好开心哦！

在英国的生活就是这样，很多时候物质上的东西
我都可以凭自己的能力满足自己
之前就用了打工的钱，做为自己的生活费
付了大约一年半的房租
买了一部iphone，回马来西亚的飞机票
去了意大利，西班牙，法国，荷兰
瑞士，芬兰，还有英国的一点小地方旅行
哇！怎么算着算着好像很多，我都不知道自己有赚这么都钱 －.－''
不过这辆车算是带给我最大的满足感啦！
如果在马来西亚工作，都不知何时才买得起自己的一辆车

詩篇 138

今天靈修的時候，讀到一篇詩，心裡充滿鼓勵。

詩篇 138 Psalm 138

我要一心稱謝你，在諸神面前歌頌你。
I will praise you, O LORD, with all my heart, before the "gods" I will sing your praise.
我要向你的聖殿下拜，為你的慈愛和誠實稱讚你的名。
I will bow down toward your holy temple, and will praise your name for your love and your faithfulness
因你使你的話顯為大，過於你所應許的。
for you have exalted above all things your name and your word.
我呼求的日子，你就應允我，鼓勵我，使我心裡有能力。
When I called, you answered me, you made me bold and stouthearted.

耶和華啊，地上的君王都要稱謝你，因他們聽見了你口中的言語。
May all the kings of the earth praise you, O LORD, when they hear the words of your mouth.
他們要歌頌耶和華的作為，因耶和華大有榮耀。
May they sing of the ways of the LORD, for the glory of the LORD is great.

耶和華雖高，仍看顧低微的人，他卻從遠處看出驕傲的人。
Though the LORD is on high, he looks upon the lowly but the proud he knows from afar.
我雖行在患難中，你必將我救活
Though I walk in the midst of trouble, you preserve my life
我的仇敵發怒，你必伸手抵擋他們，你的右手也必救我。
you stretch out your hand against the anger of my foes, with your right hand you save me.
耶和華必成全關乎我的事
The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me
耶和華啊，你的慈愛永遠長存！求你不要離棄你手所造的。
your love, O LORD, endures forever - do not abandon the works of your hands.

主啊！感謝祢，雖祢是高高在上的神，但祢卻看顧低微的人。

爸爸的爱

今天是母亲节，来了英国以后，时常会忘记打电话回家
因为英国的母亲节是在3月份

昨晚临睡前，我就不断提醒自己要打电话回家
今天早上起床后，就马上打到我爸的手机，可是一直没有人接

教会崇拜结束后，爸爸就打来了
先是跟妈妈说了母亲节快乐，后来爸说有事情要跟我谈
他问我，到底我的计划是什么
我：找到工作就留在英国，找不到的话，十月份就回去
爸：那是不是找不到工就不能留在英国？
我：不是，可以申请一种visa，可以留在英国两年找工作和工作
爸：我的意思是，如果可以的话，你就留在那边两年累积经验吧！
我：。。。。。。。。（心底的话：你不是一直想我早点回去吗？因为要跟你交代，我才用工作决定我的去留）
爸：因为现在马来西亚的经济也不太好，有些外国留学生也找不到工作， 能找到的工作也不是太好，所以如果你能在英国找到工作，有经验再回来， 对你的前途会更好。不过如果你想回来，也是可以啦！
我：。。。。（心里超感动）其实我之所以会用工作做决定， 是因为之前你一直叫我早点回去，我怕你不开心，我才这么说。 但是如果可以留在英国，当然是最好，毕竟花了这么多钱读书。
爸：当然是以你的前途为先！我是想你回来但我觉得留在那边会对你比较好

爸爸这一席话，真的令我很感动
不是因为我终于可以做出决定，而是我知道爸爸真的很爱我。
我知道我来到这么远，他心里时常牵挂着我，时常想我回到他的身边。
但今天，我才知道，原来他对我的爱，超乎我的想像。
我知道很多父母都想把孩子留在身边，不愿让他们离开自己，出去闯荡
这是我能够明白的，我能够体谅的，是合乎情理的。
但是我爸爸今天竟然可以为了我的前途
放弃他自己的私欲，完全为我的好处考虑，令我心里充满感激！

爸爸！真的谢谢你
谢谢你对我的爱
谢谢你为我付出的一切
永远爱你

感人的婚礼

刚刚参加了朋友的婚礼，应该是说教会姊妹的婚礼。第一次参加朋友的婚礼，收到的喜帖是写我的名字，而不是“赖家阖府统请”。这也是我第一次参加教会的婚礼（有一次是在我很小的时候，当时还没信主，还有一些教会的祝福礼），所以心情很不一样。

这姊妹的婚礼很简单，跟她的性格是成正比的。她是很为别人着想的人，从派喜帖给我们就说，不来没有关系，不用勉强，因为她的婚礼是在Glasgow（英国北部）举行，从伦敦乘火车去大概要五个小时，所以她很怕令我们麻烦。

透过这个姊妹，认识了她的男朋友，现在是老公啦！结婚当天，新郎笑的合不拢嘴，非常地开心，真的能够感受到他心里的喜悦，也是我见过他笑的最灿烂的一天。

看见这位姊妹步入教堂，我的眼泪就忍不住打转。还记得三年前的圣诞节，我跟她聊起她的男朋友，当时候我还笑她说，拍拖这么久，怎么还不结婚？她说时间还没到。而今天，时间终于到了，我真的很替她开心，心里真的很感动。

见证着他们的婚礼，他们对彼此的爱，对彼此的承诺，衷心祝福他们幸福快乐。

之后，我们到公园拍照。感谢主，虽然有点冷，可是天气非常晴朗，偶尔还有阳光，所以一切进行地很顺利。拍照过后新娘就准备丢花球，我和另外两个姊妹就不想加入，想说在旁边观看就好。可是后来新娘看见了我们，就呼喊我们一定要加入，我们就想说凑热闹吧！由于这新娘是个子很小的女生，她就怕自己没有力气丢，就叫所有人往前走。跟我一起的姊妹就说：我们站后面一点吧！她丢不到这么远的。

3....2....1.... 花球被丢出了，可是超乎所有人的想像，超越所有人站的位子，花球落在一个很远的地方，大家愣住了。而我，相比其他人是站在离花球比较近的地方（其实花球离我也很远），我就必需要去拾起来。就这样，花球就归我了。在拍照的时候，新娘就对我的男朋友说：不用紧张，玩玩而已，今晚不用睡不着，哈哈。。这就成了这婚礼的小插曲。

在晚上的婚宴，一开始是新郎致词，首先感谢来宾的到来。之后对爱他的父母，姐姐表示感谢，说到这里，新郎已经开始哽咽，感谢他们的照顾和支持，之后他更对新娘的父亲作出承诺，会尽力让她永远开心。最后，当然是感谢爱他的老婆，他说：我们经过很多风浪，很辛苦才走到这一步，我打从心里地爱你，能够娶到你，是我的幸福。说到这里，新郎，新娘都感动地哭了，在座的女性宾客都无法忍住泪水，包括我。

之后是新娘的致词，她知道自己没有办法压抑自己的情绪，所以一早就把致词写好，交代司仪帮忙唸出：感谢父亲的劳苦，很辛苦的供给她来英国念书，感谢从香港远道而来的亲友，感谢从伦敦过来的同事和我们，感谢好友的陪伴，也感谢老公的父母的包容和照顾。

本来这姊妹在之前叫我帮忙唸出她的谢词，可是我怕自己做不来，就没有答应。后来我跟她说，还好我没有答应，因为她老公的致词已经让我哭的说不出话了，所以我一定没有办法帮她唸出她的致词。

一开始有想过只是去中午教会的婚礼就回伦敦，因为我下个星期就要考试。可是后来决定逗留到婚宴，从他们的眼神，言语看见他们对我们的道来表示非常的感谢，我也看见他们的真情流露，所以我知道这个决定是值得的。我相信他会是一个好老公，而她，会很幸福的！

Amsterdam Trip

Just back from Amsterdam, purposely went to see Tulips and luckily it did not disappointed me. Saw a lot different kind of flowers in Keukenhof, €21 included entrance ticket and bus from Schiphol Airport. The amount of flowers really impressed me, it was so beautiful.

We took a boat to the flower farm.
Actually the flower's colour was very sharp
but don't know why it becomes normal after uploaded here.

This was inside the garden.

Besides, I received a special anniversary present which is a bunch of Tulips. It was so nice and we brought it back all the way from Amsterdam.
The next day when it back to my house, it starts flowering.

On the second day, it was nicer than the previous day
and it keeps on blooming.
So, everyday I was so excited to see how big it can grow. =D

It was our 7th Anniversary trip, we book and bought everything about 2 days before we depart (including transport, hostel, sightseeing ticket). Although it was a bit rush, actually it was very rush but he doesn't want to disappoint me and therefore we settle everything in 2 days time. ~Sweet~

Due to the restriction time, we forced to travel on Sunday. Normally we try to avoid Sunday so that we can attend church for worship. So, I looked for churches in Amsterdam online and I chose to go to a Chinese church. It is Amsterdam 恩泉宣道会.

This church is quite big with about 100 people attended, mostly from Hong Kong and some from China. After the worship, they welcome new comers and we told them we are coming for travel and therefore we r going back to London next day. But they didn't change their attitude (coz I thought some people will think we will not coming back anymore so there is no point to spend time on us). But they treated us the same and even invited us for lunch. This was the one time I received free LUNCH from church. It was so warm and friendly, I understand church is my home no matter where I am. ^.^

My FREE LUNCH..lol
it was so tasty and homely

After that, we received a welcome gift from the church
which was a testimony CD.

Before we say goodbye, the sister gave me her number and asked us to call her if we come to Amsterdam again, so that she can bring us around. She was so nice and I am really thanks for her kind thought.

You think that's the end of the story, then you are wrong. After 2 days, I was back to London and I received a letter.

When I looked at the envelope, I know it is from oversea and should be Amsterdam coz of the dutch word. So I was guessing is that from the hotel?? they want to charge us extra?? or did we do something wrong in Amsterdam. After I opened, it was from the church, a welcome card. It was so touched and so warm.

I think this is something I learned from them and I think our church should have this as well. And I believed this church is full of God's blessing and it can bless many people in Amsterdam. Not because of the free lunch or welcome gift but because of their sincerity and enthusiasm.

10 things about me

1. Low profile, so I hate people showing off in front of me.
2. I prefer hot weather rather than cold winter.
3. Very talkative and socialise outside but I like my home environment to be quiet.
4. Organise person, always plan when to do and what to do (although sometime fail but I did plan)
5. Uncomfortable when people asked me: is it tastes good? coz I always feel the food is the same.
6. Hate people say this but do that, talk one but actually thinking two, hate fake people.
7. Cry easily (I think most of my friends saw me cry before), one of my way to reduce stress.
8. Satisfy easily, accept things rather than complaining.
9. Forgetful, always looking for something.
10. Like traveling - taking photo, buying souvenir, trying local food.

事奉分享－带领小组 - 认识神的旨意

带领小组 - 认识神的旨意 16.04.2010

我在带领小组前，想过这个问题， 什么是神的旨意。
有时觉得很清楚明白，但是有时会懊恼到底哪一个才是神的旨意。

资料给了几段的经文

马太福音22:37
耶穌对他說: 你要尽心、尽性、尽意爱主--祢的神。
马太福音22:39
其次也相倣，就是要爱人如己。

这两段是神给我们的戒命，要我们遵守－要爱神，也要爱人。也就是说，神的旨意一定不会要我们违背祂的吩咐，反而是与祂的教导相应的。
例子1：如果你祷告求神让你可以开始一个新的事业，有一天你梦见你开了一间制造香烟的工厂，一切很顺利，很喜乐。梦醒后，你会想：这是不是神要我做的呢？是神给我的异象吗？
如果你是熟悉神的话语的基督徒，你应该很快地知道这不是神要你做的，因为这根本不符合圣经的教导。
这例子听起来很简单去分辨主的旨意，可是有些人还是会犯错。原因是人有时候明知道不可以做，却还是做了。或是根本对神的话语不了解，不晓得神的教导是什么。
所以在寻求神的时候，无论有什么选择，一定要回头看一看圣经，是否合乎祂的教导。

可是有的时候，有些事情是在灰色地带的，那要怎么办呢？再看看下一段经文。

罗马书2: 18
既从律法中受了教训，就晓得神的旨意， 也能分别是非。

这段经文对我们说了，教训是从律法而来，神的旨意也是从律法而来，当我们了解律法，就能分辨是非。这里的是非不是人所说的对与错，而是神看为对和错的行为。分辨是非的能力是要了解律法，也就是圣经 － 神的话语，这能力也是从神而来的。

但是有个情况下，我们没有办法了解神的话语，就是在下一段经文里。

利未记11: 44
我是耶和华 - 祢们的神；所以你们要成为圣洁，因为我是圣洁的。
你们也不可在地上的爬物污穢自己。

我们要圣洁，因为唯有这样，我们才能亲近主，才能了解神的心意。圣洁就是无罪，但是人怎么可能不犯罪呢？所以我们要常常知罪，认罪并且悔改。

帖撒罗尼迦前书5: 16 - 18
要常常喜乐，不住地祷告，凡事謝恩； 因为这是神在基督耶稣里向你们所定的旨意。

最后，我们要祷告。有的时候，我们的祷告不一定得到神的回应，这是为什么呢？有时是因为我们求的不合乎神的心意，有时神要我们等候，有时是因为神觉得不适合我们。
例子2：你可能向神求要拥有多一点的时间来事奉祂，但是似乎神没有给你，因为神知道当祂把时间给你以后，你将不会用这段时间来事奉祂，而是更加忙碌地工作。因此祂就没有应允你的祷告。
所以无论我们祷告是否得到神的回应，我们还是要感恩，因为相信神是预备最好的；也要怀着喜乐的心来跟随主。

总而言之，神的旨意一定是跟祂的教导相应的。而神对每个人都有不同的旨意，因为神是最了解我们的，祂会预备一条最适合我们的年龄，性格，环境的道路。

事奉分享 - 领诗

启航团契 - 领诗 16.04.2010

因着神的爱，让我们又在一起
因此我们要欢喜快乐地来唱诗赞美祂

我们又在一起

我们又在一起 来赞美主
我们又在一起 同心合意
美好事必定要成就 美好事已显明
我们又在一起 来赞美主
神应许看顾保守着我们，当我们活在神的旨意里
一切都变得美好，因神的道路高过人的道路

神的道路
（经文摘編：叶薇心；曲：王丽玲）

神的道路，高过人的路
神的意念，高过人的意念
祂的心里有蓝图，祂的时间不错误
一步一步带领你前途

祂立大地的根基 祂让云彩空中漂浮
是祂创造，生命气息
是祂应许照顾赐福
神造万物各按其时 耐心等待必要欢呼
啊~~耐心等待必要欢呼

这时候，让我们安静在神的面前
当我们愿意来到神的面前，我们就成为神的孩子
当我们愿意寻找主的时候，神就让我们寻见
我们要以诗歌来呼求主，呼求主的名
凡是喜乐的，我们要献上感恩
有难处的，我们要交托

耶稣，我的耶稣（词曲：游智婷）

我的神 我要永远在你的怀里
爱慕你 屈膝在你面前 单单敬拜你
我渴慕你 我敬拜你 我的主 我深爱的唯一

耶稣 哦 耶稣 我灵最深渴慕
耶稣 哦 耶稣 你医治我心深处

主啊！我们感谢祢，因祢是爱我们的天父，
求你帮助我们以信心来依靠祢，
因唯有如此，我们才有从祢而来的平安与喜乐。

保持通话

最近一直在家看电影
很多都很一般
但今天
终于看了一部有水准的
保持通话
虽然上影了很久
但一直没有时间看

主要演员：
古天乐
大S
张家辉
刘烨

故事讲述：
Grace Wong （大S）
被绑架
被关在一个小木屋里
从中找到一个
被打破的电话
由于她是一名技术人员
就晓得怎样修理电话
千心万苦地
打通了一个号码
另一头是一个
正赶着跟儿子离别
的阿邦（古天乐）

如果这通电话被挂了，Grace Wong 就可能没有办法再打通，也可能被杀！阿邦就需要想尽办法的把她救出来。张家辉是一名警察，他需要用他的智力来帮助阿邦。而刘烨绑架原因也令人毛骨悚然。

从开始到结束，这部电影都处于高潮的部分，非常的紧张刺激，绝对没有松懈的时间。不但只是黑白的交战，智慧的考验，还牵涉亲情和友情。

两个小时的电影，绝对值得看。

Easter Trip

Easter break 2010 - Windsor castle, Stonehenge and Beaulieu

Windsor castle is one of the biggest and oldest castle in the world
We reached there about 10:45am, good timing to watch the changing guard, it starts at 11am







after that, queue for a while to buy the entrance ticket (student price £14.50)
what surprise me was the check-up before enter into the castle
it was exactly the same check-up when u take a flight
so strict, maybe it's bcoz some royal families still living here
after that, got the audio guide (free) and start our discovery journey
there is a place shows the internal room of the castle
another room showing royal's appliance such as meal ware, clothes, weapon and etc.
has a gallery room, give some history of Henry VIII
a cathedral where some royal's families buried there
we spent about 4 hours there and before we went out
the staff stamped on our ticket meaning we can visit the castle again for free within 1 year

Stonehenge -- a mystery place

















with few stones standing on the grass
but no one knows the meaning of it and dunno how was it built
from the audio guide, all descriptions started with: it should be....
meaning they are not sure also, all with guessing
so we spent the time by taking photo rather than try to understand it
student price: £5.90


Another day, we went to Beaulieu
for photo on my facebook, please click here
it is allocated at South of England, New Forest
it takes about 2 hours drive from London
adult ticket - £16.00

















it is a nice place to spent a day
with family or a group of friends
Beaulieu means
beautiful place in France
There is a National Motor Musuem
with lots of old vehicles, F1, sign vehicles such as Mr. Bean's car,
special vehicles such as Creme Egg car, future car and etc.
there is another room showing
some vehicles from James Bond's movie and World of Top Gear
to see some picture, please click here
since we brought our lunch so we spent some time to picnic there
relax and enjoy the nice weather, environment and flowers
Also, a Pallace House is allocated inside (forgot who's Palace)
and a Beaulieu Abbey (church), a garden (should have more flowers during summer time)

禁食的得着

根据教会的教导，我和维进行了禁食和祷告

过程分成了三个部分，也是禁食的主要目的

首先，读了以赛亚书53章，
说明了神的爱，耶稣基督为了担当世人的罪，要被鞭伤，被钉死
之后，读了十架七言，再一次提醒我耶稣的大爱，神白白赐给世人的恩典
我的心，再一次被感动

第二部分是安静在神的面前
为了要监察自己的内心，为得罪神的部分认罪
我记得有一年在伦敦的受难节，教会预备了一个很大，木制的十字架
牧师在分享时，有一段令我印象很深刻
他说：耶稣是因为我们的罪而被钉死的，我们包括我和你
所以请你们在纸上写上你觉得得罪神的地方，你自己有罪的事情
不需要给别人看，只有你和神知道
写好以后，这里有铁钉和锤子，你要把你写好的纸钉在十字架上
代表耶稣身上的钉痕是你钉的，同时也表明你的罪和耶稣一起钉死了
每一次你再犯罪时，你都是再一次把耶稣钉在十字架上
排队快要轮到我时，我心里真的很挣扎
我明白耶稣是为我而死，但要我亲手钉他，我真的不愿意
这时，使我真正明白一个人为我死的感受，更何况耶稣是神，他也是无罪的

回想今天，自己仍然会犯罪，真的觉得很不应该
为什么不能克制呢，到这里时，我的眼泪不禁的流下
一直对神说：对不起。。为什么自己没有办法做到呢
但是爱我的神，让我明白，我们之所以还会犯罪
是因为人还活在罪的世上，所以要常常认罪，悔改
直到我们见主的时候，就可以脱离罪的捆绑了

最后
我们为着亲人，教会，朋友，世界代祷
但愿有一天他们也能够认识这一位爱他们的主耶稣

结束时，已经过了两个小时，是在我们意料之外的（心想：怎么会这么久）
可是这两个小时，我们有很大的得着，满满的平安和喜乐
感谢主！

十架七言

受难节
是纪念主耶稣被钉死在十字架

十架七言
是主耶稣临死之前的七句话，也是在被钉在十字架上所说的

复活节
是纪念主耶稣死后，在第三天复活

教会鼓励我们在耶稣受难节（这年是4月2日）
的时候，可以默想与禁食

主要的目的是
第一
回顾主耶稣为我们受死的过程，认识和体会他舍己的大爱
第二
安静和省察自己，在罪上向神忏悔，重新振作跟随主
第三
认识神的救赎计划，为邻舍，亲人，世界的救赎代祷

至于默想的经文，可以是十架七言
如下：

父啊，赦免他们。
因为他们所作的，他们不晓得。(路加福音23：34)
Father, let them have forgiveness,
for they have no knowledge of what they are doing. (Luke 23:34)

我实在告诉你，
今日你要同我在乐园里了。(路加福音23：43)
Truly I say to you,
Today you will be with me in Paradise. (Luke 23:43)

母亲，看你的儿子。
又对那门徒说，看你的母亲。(约翰福音19：26－27)
Mother, there is your son!
Then he said to his disciple, There is your Mother! (John 19:26-27)

以罗伊，以罗伊，拉马撒巴各大尼？
翻出来，就是，我的神，我的神，为什么离弃我？(马可福音15：34)
Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?
which is, My God, my God,
why are you turned away from me? (Mark 15:34)

我渴了。(约翰福音19：28)
Give me water. (John 19:28)

成了。(约翰福音19：30)
All is done. (John 19:30)

父啊，我将我的灵魂交在你手里。(路加福音23：46)
Father, into your hands I give my spirit. (Luke 23:46)

主耶稣是神，却成了人，来到世上
只为了拯救有罪又不能自救的我们

主耶稣爱我们，爱到愿意为我们舍己
无罪的他，为了担当我们的罪，而死在十字架上

为了证明他是神，他在第三天复活，多次显现，给多人看
四十天之后，他升天，被接回天家

主耶稣是唯一一位说爱人的神
只要我们心里相信，口里承认
我们就得到这一份无人能夺取的爱

凡接待他的，就是信他名的人，
他就赐他们权柄
做神的儿女
约翰福音12：1

Alice in Wonderland 3D

I have watched Alice in Wonderland last night
thanks for Orange so that we can enjoyed 2 for 1 cinema ticket
which saved a lot and can go more frequent

Back to the movie
it was about Alice, obviously from it's title
going back to the wonderland..
yes, going back as her second visit
the 1st time was her dream (but actually it happened in real)
and the 1st time was the Disney cartoon version
just in case many ppl don't know there is a cartoon version
this is the poster which is a Disney movie for children


it was an awesome movie, especially for children
this is one of my favourite Disney movies
worth watching

for this movie version
the story is a bit related to the Disney cartoon version
but it is more commercial and suitable for adult

the story was so so....
and I was quite disappointed with the animation
for the cartoon version
it was fulled with mystery and very "wonderland"
so i thought it would be very nice if in the movie
the effect can be draw out by computer, 3D and etc
but actually no, it wasn't like what I expected
it didn't full use of the 3D technology
instead, Avatar was fully using the 3D effect

despite all those animate effect
it is worth watching if u put ur focus on Johnny Deep
he is a good actor and he did very well in this movie

How to make a birthday cake

It is the same receipt for making a Swiss roll and a birthday cake.
Here is my Swiss roll receipt
The only difference is you need to prepare more fruits, cream and some creative ideas for a birthday cake. You need to think how are you going to decorate your cake, then prepare appropriate material. Personally, I like fruit cake and I think it will be the nice and easy decoration for beginner. Please look at the picture below for references. Hope it helps.

I used strawberry and peach to decorate.

You can cut strawberry into different shape
in order to have difference effect.
For those cream decoration on the side,
you need to have decorating kit
to help you squeeze the cream into different shape.

For this, I used the same fruit as the previous one.
The only different was I used nuts to decorate the sides.

I used more fruits this time, because this cake is bigger.
I used green and black grapes as the outline.
Then I put peach surrounded strawberry (canned) and kiwi.
On the sides, I used almond flake.

Final reminder: Use fresh fruit if you can, so it can keep longer. For those juicy fruit, you might need to make it dry before you put on the cream. It is to avoid watery on the cake and fruit's colour fade after overnight.

领诗的事奉

事奉分享- 领诗
21.03.2010

序言(粤语):神没有应许我们天色常蓝，但祂却应许时时看顾我们
因为祂是我们的避难所，是我们随时的帮助

1. 谁曾应许（粤语）(曲詞:盧永亨)

谁曾应许，一生不撇下我；每段窄路，谁陪我去走过？
谁还领我，於青草恬静处躺卧，丰足恩惠比海沙更多！

谁曾应许，天天看 顾著我；昼夜眷佑，连头发也数过！
谁还以爱，驱走心里惧怕怯懦，那惧路途卷动著旋涡！

因你是我主，我避难所，我盾牌和诗 歌！
你是我的高台，我随时帮助！
来吧用信心，赞颂和高歌，你永在我心窝！
唯你有永生江河，除你以外不倚靠别个！

我 究竟算甚麼？神你竟这般顾念我



当我们站在神的面前，我们算不了什么，我们是如此的微小
但因着神的慈爱，祂接纳我们，使我们成为祂宝贝的孩子，因祂是那爱我们的神（国语）

2. 有一位神（词:万美蔺 曲:游智婷）

有一位神，有权能创造宇宙万物
也有温柔双手安慰受伤灵魂
有一位神，有权炳审判一切罪恶
也有慈悲体贴人的软弱

有一位神，我们的神
唯一的神，名叫耶和华
有权威荣光，有恩典慈爱
是昔在今在永在的神



主耶稣基督为了担当我们的罪，为我们舍身，流血，表明了祂对我们的爱
让我们以这首诗歌献上我们的感恩，赞美，也一起思念主的恩典

3. 我的神我要敬拜祢 （詞／曲：林文蘭）

我的神我要敬拜祢 我的心深深地愛祢
在祢的座前 我思想祢恩典
我的心讚美敬拜祢

祢是我心靈的滿足 祢是我唯一的喜樂
在祢的座前 我思想祢恩典
我的神我要敬拜祢



慈爱的主，我们感谢祢，因祢带给我们心灵上的满足，带给我们满满的喜乐
求你帮助我们以自己的生命为祢作见证，使更多人能够得到祢的爱。
主啊！我们以心灵和诚实所献上的赞美
愿达到祢的施恩宝座前，蒙祢喜悦。

Before you make a decision

What am impressing story about the collapsed of Jericho City
is it because of Joshua's wisdom and leadership?
or because of Israelites great marching?
or the excellent trumpet's sound blew by the priest?
the answer is: none of the above!

The reason behind is because the Lord our God is with Israelites
it is because God wants to give them the city
the glory of the Lord was built because of His great work

But later
those men who sent to attack Ai City were fled from the men of Ai
Why? Why God has given them the city of Jericho so easily
but declined to lead them when come to the small city of Ai
because Israel has sinned
therefore, the Lord was not with them
therefore they failed

When come to Gibeonites' trick
Joshua and Israelites were being lied by them
because they did not seek for the Lord's counsel
After they realised those Gibeonites were live among them
it was too late, Israelites had established peace with them

God has tell us so clearly
when He will be with us and when it is not
it is up to us to choose
Obey God's commandment (teaching) = Full of Blessing
Disobey God's commandment (teaching) = Full of Cursing

Today's thought and contemplation:
What a perilous path we walk when we rely upon our own wisdom,
and neglect to include God in our decision (Josh 9:14-15)
Are you facing a major decision today?
Then don't make a move
until you have prayed and invited God into your decision making.

Yes, I have facing a major decision today
I don't know which path to take
but I strongly believe God is with me
and He will guides my future

"Guide me in Your truth and teach me,
for You are the God of my salvation;
I wait for You all day long.''
(Psalm 25:5)

1st telephone interview in my life

Had a telephone interview today, 1st in my life!
I think it's ok but something can be improve.
I was very calm because I don't even know it is a telephone interview.

Interviewer: Hello, can I speak to Vicky Lai?

Me: Yes, speaking

Interviewer: I am calling from bla bla bla company. Regarding about your application for HR internship, I would like to know more about you

Me: OK

Interviewer: Are you currently studying in King's College London?
When is your course comes to the end?
When can you start working?
Do you need to give notice to your present company?
What other intern has you applied?
This job role is responsible for bla bla bla....
What do you learn about reward and pay in your uni?
What do you learn about training and development in your uni?
Our company reward and pay are bla bla bla....
Training and development are bla bla bla....
How much did you previous company pay for you?
Are you satisfy with our pay rate?
What other benefits are you looking for?

Like this, he asked me on the phone around 15 mins and it was a bit like an exam especially when he asked me what have I learned in uni. What do I know about reward and pay, training and development, etc. But luckily, it was my previous exam questions, so I still can remember what I have been taught. Due to I don't know it was an interview, so I just acted like normal chatting.

After 15 mins chatting....

Interviewer: Thank you very much. This job role has 3 selection stages which are one telephone interview and two face to face interviews. I have done the telephone interview with you just now and we will call you back if we want you to participate in our face to face interview. The decision making process should take no more than 10 days.

Then I was like: huh?! Just now was telephone interview? Oh, I think I give some silly answer or give too casual answer coz when he asked me is there any intern I have apply for, I answer no and he asked why? I firstly answer by saying their company is very good, I really hope to join this kind of company. My 2nd and 3rd points were because the intern period suits my time and the company is very close to my house. Later I realised this answer sounds childish but my friends said it's alright, nothing wrong with the answer. Anyways, it has pass. What I can do now is wait.

My dear Lord, if this is the job that you have prepared for me, please help me proceed, I really hope I can get a job soon. But if it is not the job you want to give me, I am willing to obey your will and wait for you decision.

Flowers in UK

Living in a place and visiting a place will give you totally different feeling. When you are going a place for travel, you will keep on taking picture (especially myself) and tend to put more attention to details. On contrast, a place where you lived, you will show less interest and even don't remember how does the road where you pass by everyday look like.

Since I have been living in UK for about 3 years, I don't take much picture unless I saw something really interesting. And there is one thing that interest me these few years was the flowers in UK. I realised those flowers in UK are very different from Malaysia one. Most probably is because of the weather, so there are different kind of flowers in UK during winter, summer, spring and autumn. I found some flowers with special shape, special colours and special....................name?? (nah, I don't know what's their name, lol)

Here are some pictures I took from my iphone, obviously, when you are living in a place, you wouldn't always carry your camera with you. =P

Very sharp yellow

Looks like grape

Does it looks like....lamp??

Dark red rose

Dandelion 蒲公英

bamboo
yeah, i know this is not special
but this is my house plant, so need to show it..haha

sharp pink big flower with little purple flower

erm, this is........grass??

my lovely house plants

the main character is those water..haha....

dunno what fruit

similar with rose

The end....hope you enjoy

Complicated

Today is the first day in March 2010
the last month I will have official class in King's College
3 more classes in University of East Anglia in April
then I am done, no more class..

But later, I need to submit a dissertation to UEA, deadline in May.
Another dissertation to KCL in September
and a Manager Research Report to CIPD.

Yes! Yes!
I am currently taking 2 courses in 2 different universities
so I need to submit 2 dissertations, I am crazy!!!!

Actually I still got another
self study course in Law
it's a 3 years degree programme....

don't ask me why
I also don't know
I make myself so complicated..

maybe it's bcoz I don't want to give up to study law
I wanna give myself a try
even if I can't graduate later
but at least I try before..

Anyways, back to my feeling

this is the 1st time I feel like want to stay in UK
hoping not to go back to M'sia so soon
dunno why
I am worrying
what if I can't find a job in London??
what if I need to go back M'sia for good??
why I got this feeling?
I also dunno....

but when think of my family
I feel like going back..

haiz..I am such a complicated person
I don't even understand myself..

God, please guide me as I am your child..

为什么的教导

最近听到朋友的遭遇，令我心情也很低落
本来很开心要准备迎接新的开始，却又遇到困难

我一定不是一个好的辅导者，每次听完别人的遭遇
我总是会被别人的情绪牵走，所以我是一个容易哭也容易笑的人

从另一个角度看，可能这是好的
因为这样我才会有负担，恳切为别人祷告

虽然人生有很多未知的事，甚至是不如意的
我们总会问为什么
为什么是我
为什么会发生这事情
为什么这时候发生
为什么要发生
为什么 为什么 为什么

但是神的教导正是从为什么来向我们说话
为什么 WHY
W ait （等待）
H ope（盼望）
Y ield（降服）

当然，这些道理在头脑上都是很容易明白的
但是当事情发生时，我们很难坦然积极地面对
正因为如此，我们更要依靠神
得着神，胜过得着答案

主啊！求你帮助我身边有软弱的朋友，
帮助软弱的我，凡事依靠祢，凡事交托给祢。

希伯来书12：1－2
你们所遇见的试探，无非是人所能受的。
神是信实的，必不叫你们受试探过于所能受的；
在受试探的时候，
总要给你们开一条出路，叫你们能忍受得住。

Avatar 3D

watched Avatar today, it was really nice

I like the story, the characters and also the computer effect

the environment in the jungle and those plants were amazing!!!!

especially there was a plant with purple colour, don't know what's that but it's very beautiful

part of the movie was about the love story between human and avatar, it was so touching

It was happy ending which is good for me

otherwise, I will need to borrow some tissues from my friends

**silly me, forgot to wear contact lense so I was wearing 2 specs, one was my own spec, one was the 3D spec. Lucikly the cinema was dark enough, so no one realised my stupid face except my friend..lolz

我的恩典够你用的

我的恩典够你用的
作词:黄国伦 作曲：黄国伦

我的恩典够你用的 我的恩典够你用的
因为我的能力 是在人的软弱上
显得完全 显得完全
你的恩典够我用的 你的恩典够我用的
因为主的能力 是在人的软弱上
显得完全 显得完全
所以我要单单夸我的软弱
好叫基督的能力覆庇我
何时我软弱 何时我就得刚强
喔！主的恩手 永不离开我

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UG2WrpnLuSs

生死边缘

今天如常乘搭地铁去上课，到Belsize Park（大概只过了两个站）的时候，地铁上冒起大烟，所有人都匆忙地逃下地铁。没错！他们真的是用逃的，从他们的表情上看得出，他们很恐惧，很慌张。。这也使我心里有一种莫名的害怕。所以人都在观察发生什么事，地铁站却没有做出任何的报告。

不久，所有人又上地铁，我也跟着。但是我的心里是也很害怕的，我就闭上眼睛祷告。忽然听见这些人又冲下地铁。到底发生什么事？？我不知道。。那些人也不知道。。大家都很疑惑，我们就继续站在原处等。

终于，地铁的人报告了：
This is an emergency announcement, all passengers please leave the station immediately.

同时间，另外一辆地铁到了，眼见所有人都在跑，有的赶着上地铁，有的往电梯里挤，那电梯是通往出口的。而我，即上不了地铁也进不了电梯，等于我是在两头不到岸的情况， 心里真的很害怕，不知道下一秒会发生什么事。旁边更是有人大喊说：FIRE!!!!FIRE!!!!
令我毛骨悚然。过一会儿，电梯到了，我也安全地离开地铁站，但是这个早晨可以说是又惊又险！

我当时的祷告是：主啊！我不知道发生什么事，但如果主祢要我死在这里，求你与我同在！

现在回想会觉得很可笑，但是在当时的情况，人们的惊慌失措，无助的自己，对于下一秒的无知，真的使我很恐惧。

如果当时真的发生什么悲剧，我觉得最可惜的是没有办法跟爱我的家人，朋友和弟兄姊妹道别。如果有机会，我最想说的是：
不要为我的离开而哭，要跟随主耶稣到底，因为唯有这样我们才可以在天家相聚。

主啊！经过这件事，再次令我发觉自己是多么的渺小，唯有祢是我随时的帮助。求你帮助我，时时把祢的话语记在心里，为祢做美好的见证，直到我见祢面。

诗篇46：1
神是我们的避难所，
是我们的力量，
是我们在患难中随时的帮助。

圣诞老人的故乡－芬兰

圣诞老人
一直是小孩的幻想，也是我的幻想
对圣诞老人有很大的期待，亲切的圣诞老人，装满礼物的大红袋
可以说是小孩在圣诞节的最期待的东西

直到我听说芬兰有一个圣诞老人村，好想去看看哦
可是因为时间上一直没有好好安排，所以来了英国这么久都还没有去过

前几天终于去了，抵达圣诞老人村时
心中就涌出喜悦的感觉，好像回到小时候哦
全白的人行道，被雪铺满的圣诞老人屋，闪闪的灯饰，真的很漂亮，很童话
我们先是跟圣诞老人合照，再去Husky Park
花了€35，坐了大约五分钟，感觉是很不错，就像电影里的情景一样
可惜是天气实在是太冷了，当时还在下雪
大风再加上雪，全打在我的面上，冷得我的五官已经没有感觉了
之后到了圣诞老人邮局，写了一张明信片给家人，一张给自己
因为邮局将为你印上圣诞老人的盖章，加上圣诞老人的邮票
只有那里有哦！所以很值得做纪念

这是邮票的大图在Rovaniemi，大概就只有圣诞老人村

而在Helsinki，我们去了动物园，是蛮特别的，
看了许多冬天的动物，雪鹿，雪猫头鹰，等等
还有去了Suomenlinna，是一个海上的城堡，也是很值得去，景色都很漂亮

It was snowing again in London!!!!

I still remember last year Feb around CNY, London had a heavy snow as well but at that time I was in M'sia so I missed the snow. I was so jealous when looking at those pic of my friends, with "white" city and snowman.

During last Christmas, it was snowing before and after Christmas, so I had a white Christmas, I was so excited while looking outside the window seeing the snow getting more and more. It snows on and off for around 1 week, so I use up my time going to few places, played snow war and make my 1st ever snowman and 2nd.

The 1st snowman built by me who wearing my scarf.

2nd snowman wearing my scarf too..

The night before today, it was snowing again and it was quite heavy compared to the previous snow. During yesterday afternoon, it was keep on snowing and it was very heavy! After a while, all places have been covered up by snow, it looks like movie and child's fairy tale.

I like this photo so much, it was so nice!

When I walked through the Hendon park, my shoe was covered by the snow, luckily I was wearing boot, I think it should have around 30-40cm thick.

I slept on the snow, it was so soft and comfortable, probably because of the snow was still "fresh"..lol.. I had a great time with my friends, we were playing snow war, building huge snowman and taking lot of photos.

My 3rd and 4th snowman.
Proud of it. It was even taller than us.
Again, it was wearing my scarf and another scarf belongs to Stephen
Some ppl pass by want to take photo with our snowman too..haha..

I was my greatest experience while I am studying in UK
which is so SWEET and MEMORABLE!