How was my 2008

Finally, another year has gone, new year has come. When I looked back my diary in 2008, it was complicated but it reminded me the past. I've listed out some important things happened and how was my emotion.

Jan 2008

• I went to Cardiff, visited Kwan and then she brought us to Bath.
• 1st time song lead in Colindale Church
• Get a job in Allegra Strategies as data entry
• Emotion rate: 4 (1: very bad to 5: very good)

This place is Roman Bath, worth place to visit.
























Feb 2008

• 1st time receive "ang pau" in UK which was from my boss and a customer in the restaurant that I worked in.
• 1st time watch movie in cinema in UK. The movie was "Jumper"
• Emotion rate: 4
  

Mar 2008

• Went to Thorpe Park, didn't play much because I was so scare after riding the 1st roller coaster
• Watched football match: Sweden vs Brazil in Arsenal Stadium
• Emotion rate: 3
  

Apr 2008

• Milan, Venice, and Switzerland Trip. This photo was taken while I watched football match in San Siro Stadium (AC Milan vs Atalanta)
• Snowing in London, weird timing
• Emotion rate: 5 (Having Fun!)

May 2008

• 2nd Academic year examination
• Celebrate 5th anniversary
• Back to Malaysia
• Emotion rate: 2 (Stressful)
  

Jun 2008

• Port Dickson trip with family
• Heard a very bad news
• Trip to Hong Kong and Macau
• Emotion rate: 1 (Unbelievable, unacceptable mood)

Jul 2008

• 21st Birthday party, this was my cute cute pig birthday cake! Love it!
  
• Ultra sound examination
• Emotion rate: 3 (Complicated mood)

Aug 2008

• Olympic in Beijing, China
• Back to London
• Children summer camp, pastor Wong preaching, very good and remind me something
• Emotion rate: 2 (Uncertain)
  

Sept 2008

• Finally found a place to stay, sign a contract for 1 year
• 1st time watched Theater, "Joseph and amazing dream's coat"
• Emotion rate: 3 (Tired)
  

Oct 2008

• Start 3rd academic year
• Emotion rate: 3
  

Nov 2008

• Canterbury Trip, visited vineyard. However, we missed the best season
  
• Very stressful because of group problem and lots of assignments
• Emotion rate: 2 (Moody)
  
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Dec 2008

• Christmas and New Year celebration!
• Emotion rate: 5 (Grateful)

After reading this, I realised I have done many things in 2008. I have done something out of my expectation, something happened out of my control but still I have to face it. Thanks God for giving me the strength to face tomorrow because I know He holds the future.
Psalms 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.

Swiss Roll

Below is my Swiss Roll recipe, provided by Amy Leung (one of my church member in Colindale, UK). I have made some edits on the recipe to make it easier to understand. Hope it helps those who like to make their own Swiss Roll. :-)

Recipe
Ingredients for Sponge Cake:
Ingredient a: 7 eggs – separate in 2 different bowls (egg white and egg yolk), 100g sugar - separate in 2 different bowls (50g each)
Ingredient b: 100ml oil and 50ml hot water
Ingredient c: 1 tbsp Vanilla essence, Flour mixture: 80g plain flour, 25g corn flour, 30g milk powder
Ingredient d: 1 / 2 tbsp lemon juice, 2 tsp baking powder, salt
Ingredients for topping:
Ingredient a: 500ml Double Cream, 10g sugar

Method
Sponge cake:
1. Mixture A: Whisk egg yolk with small amount of sugar, then more sugar & whisk. Then add ingredient b, whisk slightly. After that, add ingredient c, whisk slightly.
2. Mixture B: Whisk egg white – gradually add all the sugar, baking powder. Half way – add lemon juice and whisk until thick.
3. Add a pinch of salt to mixture A. Then add some mixture B and whisk very slightly. After that add all the mixture A to mixture B and whisk very slightly.
4. Transfer into a baking try (remember put baking paper). Bake for 15-20 minutes at 170oc
Topping:
1. Whisk double cream with small amount of sugar, then more sugar until thick and creamy.
2. Apply all the creamy double cream on the top of sponge cake, the roll.

This is how the sponge cake look like after baking.
The double cream have to be whisk until it looks like this.

My home made Swiss roll!!
Although it may not look as good as the Swiss roll selling outside, but it tastes very nice!

Away in a manger

Children performance during Christmas

Matthew 18:1-5 At the same time came the disciples unto Jesus, saying, Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven? And Jesus called a little child unto him, and set him in the midst of them, And said, Verily I say unto you, Except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven. Whosoever therefore shall humble himself as this little child, the same is greatest in the kingdom of heaven. And whoso shall receive one such little child in my name receiveth me.

May God always remind me to "Humble like little child", always see others are better than I am.

永远怀念你！Written: December 18, 2008

还记得那一天，到她家的时候，她的女儿来接待我。心中满满的期待，再次见到她。想说今天要跟她好好的度过，想要带她去这去那。我问她的女儿：她在哪 呢？她的女儿一面错愕的看着我：你不知道吗？她走了。。。。走了？？我的眼泪不受控制的流下，我真的不能接受，原来她已经走了半年，我都不知道。我心中有 很多的疑问：她的身体一向来不是很好的吗？这么会说走就走？我还要带她去玩啊！她还没有见过我的男朋友啊！我结婚时，她要来啊！怎么说走就走？！怎么 会？！

回头想一想，我真的觉得自己很白痴！很不孝！去英国读书前，我真的很想去找她，但是因为时间太紧凑，真的没有办法去他的家，当时自己也很傻，竟然忘记了“电话’这个工具，也没有打个电话跟她道别，就离开马来西亚了。

半年以后，再踏足在马来西亚时，带了一些手信，知道她喜欢吃饼干，也带了英国特产的饼干给她。最后玩玩乐乐两个月后，就再回英国继续念书了。至于英国特产的饼干也留在我家，并没有带到去他家，也没有见到她！

忽然有一天在英国的家，发了一个可怕的梦，在梦中她离开了人世，我在参加她的丧礼。梦醒以后，眼泪还不能停止，中心充满着害怕。当时还想起民间的传言：如 果梦见亲人离世，千万不能跟任何人说，不然会有不好的事情发生。所以当时我真的不敢跟任何人提起，更不敢打电话问他的状况。

最后，她还是离世了。我连她的丧礼也没有办法参加，她的最后一面，我永远都见不到了。我真的很后悔，很难过，我怎么会这样对她？！想起我小时喉，她是如何 的疼爱我！但我竟然没有办法在他余生时，陪她度过！我时时在想，她临终时，心中是否充满着满满的问号，：为什么我这么久没有去探望她？为什么去了英国也没 有通知她？到底我在英国过的怎样？等等。。我知道她在跟病魔抗斗时，有想过要打电话给我，但因为怕我担心，怕影响我的学业，最后她放弃了。

我真是个不孝女，真白痴！我以为有一天等我长大，对于疼爱我的人， ，我有机会孝顺他们，把他们对我的疼爱加倍的报答给他们。但。。原来。。他们有一天会离世，那一天，谁都不知道。。

到最后，我再带回来的英国特产饼干，她永远也吃不到。如果我当时肯好好花时间跟她道别，如果我好好的安排我在马来西亚的两个月，如果我不管民间谣言，如果我有打电话向她问好，如果。。如果。。到现在，一切都太迟了。这是我人生中最大的打击，唯有切记，以后走每一步都三思。

咪，我的奶妈，我永远怀念你！

亲爱的朋友，如果你看到我的心情写照时，你心中默默的想起你的家人或朋友。请多安排时间跟他们相处，别让自己后悔！因为当我们慢慢长大时，也等于身边的亲人的年纪越来越大，也会慢慢的离开。

Above All (Written: September 20, 2008)

Above all powers, Above all things
Above all nature and all created things
Above all wisdom and all the ways of man
You were here before the world began

Above all kingdoms, Above all thrones
Above all wonders the world has ever known
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth
There’s no way to measure what You’re worth

Crucified, Laid behind the stone
You lived to die, Rejected and alone
Like a rose trampled on the ground
You took the fall, And thought of me
Above all

我的救主！(Written: March 22, 2007)

当我告诉我朋友我信耶稣后，很多朋友都吓了一跳. 当然！我是在2004年尾才信耶稣的，所以2004年前就认识我的朋友：”我认识你们的时候是未信耶稣的。“ 我想和你们分享我信耶稣的原因和改变。

在我还没信耶稣前, 我是一个很消极的人.
当我的生活遇到不愉快的事情时, 我会觉得这世界上没有人疼我, 没有人爱我.
我会把自己关起来, 谁也不想见, 也不想告诉别人我的事, 只是自己一个人哭.
当然, 我还是渴望别人来爱我的, 但我不知道我可以从哪里得到我想要的爱.

在我十三岁那年, 朋友带我到一个教会举办的青年营. 在那里有一个弟兄跟我传福音, 但是他不停地中伤我的信仰, (那时我一个佛教徒), 我当然不好受, 之后还对自己说, 我一定不会成为基督徒的. 但是, 上帝的安排真的很奇妙, 到我十六岁的那年, 我认识了一位朋友, 我和他非常得要好, 但有一天他对我说他是一位基督徒, 我觉得很突然, 因为在我许多好朋友当中, 没有一位是基督徒的.因为他的缘故, 我开始对基督教有兴趣, 开始发问很多的问题, 到底谁是耶稣? 为什么他被钉十架? 为什么我们要活在世上? 死后到底我们要去到哪里? 直到我生命中很多的难题都被解答后, 我就开始寻找教会, 要更认识神.

即使我信耶稣后, 我的身体上依然有软弱, 因为我的尾龙骨是歪的.每当睡醒时, 我的背都非常疼痛, 可能是歪了的尾龙骨的关系, 有时连我的腰和我的颈也会痛.信主后, 我一直跟神祷告, 求神给我的尾龙骨可以移到正确的位置. 祷告了差不多三年, 神都没有答应我的祷告, 我的尾龙骨依然是歪的. 但是我依然要说感谢主因为我的背很久都没有痛了. 即使我的尾龙骨是歪的, 但是我的肩膀并没有歪, (因为我的朋友, 她的背没有痛, 没有我歪的这么严重, 但是她的肩膀和腰却歪了) 所以, 即使神没有把我的尾龙骨移到正确的位置, 但神却使我的背不再痛了, 更加不用靠什么的药物. 最重要的是, 我知道神没有让我的尾龙骨移到正确的位置, 一定有他的原因, 我更相信神目前给我的一定是对我最好的.

信耶稣以后, 我不再是一个消极的人, 因为我知道耶稣爱我. 就算这世上没有人再关心我, 没有人再爱我, 我也不怕, 因为至少我背后还有主耶稣, 还有主耶稣爱我. 就算我在世上遇到再多再艰辛的困难我也不怕, 我也不会回头, 因为我知道耶稣他爱我们所有人即使我们不信他, 耶稣甚至为我们而哭, 因为我知道他不舍得看我这们样. 主耶稣基督他不舍得看到我们在世上所受的痛苦, 所以他宁愿跟我们交换, 代替我们钉在十架上, 使我们能够藉着他, 得到这个永生的生命, 但我又能为主做什么呢? 我能用什么来回报主耶稣对我的爱呢? 我唯有用我一生来爱主, 一生跟随主耶稣, 为主耶稣做见证, 使他的名能得到荣耀, 而我们可以爱主, 也是我们的福分.
希望你们看了我的分享后，能知道主耶稣也爱你！